WHAT I LEARNT IN 2019

2019 really did big impact to me on how i see something happened. It was very tough year 🌵 but I did small turning point in my life. I slowly see another rainbow 🌈 on closed door before. I am in healing progress of something that I had been holding for myself since 2012. The deepest wound that keep haunted me since then ( 😢😭).  Even though, I am still not fully recover,  I am now better 😊.
There are some lessons learnt from the heartbroken 💔.


♥ PUT YOUR BELIEVE IN ALLAH ♥

Whenever things don't be well as you plan, believe that Allah has the best plan for you. Or He actually diverge you from something you can't handle. Somehow, I accidentally went through Prof Muhaya talk with Ustazah Asma Harun and she shared this verse from Quran Surah Ghafir : 44. This verse is about putting 💯 trust on Allah to help you in whatever problems that you are dealing with.

♥SHARE YOUR SORROW OR PAIN WITH ALLAH♥

He is the only one who truly know your pain as He is the one create your heart, so He will know better what you feel. Sometimes, you can't describe the pain that you faced,even you already talked to someone you close to. The best way to keep calm is, crying in your sujood and tell everything to Allah. You will find those calmness even the problem are not solved yet. The feeling was like a heavy burden has been removed from your shoulder.


♥SEEKING ALLAH WHENEVER LOST♥

One tip that i keep doing whenever i feel 'lost'. Read surah Al Fatihah, selawat with the intention of seeking for Allah's help. Then, close your eyes and randomly open the pages of the Holy Quran. Read those 2 pages and go through the meaning of every sentence. If Allah's will, 1 or 2 sentences are just like Allah's answer to your worries 😭. You will feel like Allah is too care for you even though you disobey Him


♥ BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE♥

Stop looking for something you don't have, but start counting on your blessings. Not all are lucky as much as you are. You might have something that other people are searching for. Count on your blessing from having supportive family, good friend, meal to eat and a place to stay.


♥EVERYONE HAS HIS STRUGGLE♥

Every one of us has different level of tests so don't compare to others. We also have different strength and weakness. Don't lose hope when you fail in that level because others  can easily passed through that. You never know they might be struggle in another level. Just believe there is sun after rain.


♥ DON'T EASILY JUGDE PEOPLE BASED ON WHAT YOU SEE♥

Don't easily judge people for not doing for what they are responsible to. They might be not doing that in front of you. The true identity of a person lie on a pieces of blood called 'heart'. It is where you know the true intention of someone. Someone you see as 'bad guy' can be the kindest person you never knew.

Surprise Box 🎉🎊📦

Everyone loves surprise box
It could be something you like
And it could be something to hate too
It's same goes to life
No one knows what tomorrow will held
You either meet rainbow or storm
Both have their own's part

When you meet rainbow
It could be something that you dream of
Be kind and grateful
When you face storm
It's not the end of your life
The storm will come to end
The sun will shine again

When a door closes
Just walk forward
Maybe another door opens ahead
Or maybe a window
If neither door nor window opens,
Still no worries
You might have SURPRISE BOX 🎊🎉📦

Allah rindu kau 😭

Pernah diuji ujian bertimpa - timpa
Seakan - akan engkau dicampak dari langit Seolah-olah tiada lagi hari esok
Seumpama dibiar terkapai di lautan

Yaa!!  Itulah dia. Tanda Allah rindu. Tanda Allah masih sayang.  Tanda Allah masih peduli. Bersyukurlah!!  Allah sebenarnya rindu pada rintihan kita.  Allah nak kita mengadu dan meminta pada Dia. Saat kita tak ada siapa untuk mengadu,  carilah Allah kerana Dia takkan pernah membuka aib kita walaupun sejuta dosa.

Jika kita betul-betul berserah dan bertawakkal pada Allah,  satu per satu Allah mudahkan jalan keluar kepada masalah kita.  Apabila kita berserah dan redha dengan perancangan Allah, kita akan lebih tenang dan lebih terbuka untuk menerima kekecewaan. Kerana kita tahu "Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita,  Allah tahu apa yang kita tidak tahu"

Pernah satu hari saya memang down sangat2, stress dengan macam2 masalah yang datang sekaligus.  Sambil2 scroll ig ada terjumpa satu post, dia bagitahu, kalau kita rasa kosong dan tak tahu nak buat apa ' Ambil Quran, Baca Al -Fatihah dan Selawat keatas Rasullullah 7x kemudian minta Allah tunjukkan jalan keluar masalah kita. Randomly buka mana2 helaian Al -Quran dan baca kedua2 halaman. Habis baca terus baca maksudnya dan Insha Allah salah satu daripada ayat2 dalam 2 halaman itu Allah tujukan kepada kita. Jawapan kepada apa yang kita minta. Amazingly masa saya buat, Allah gerakkan saya untuk buka surah Maryam. Dua ayat yang saya rasa Allah betul2 bagi jawapan apa yang saya minta.

" (Allah) berfirman, "Demikianlah."Tuhanmu berfirman, "Hal itu mudah bagi-Ku; sungguh,  engkau telah Aku ciptakan sebelum itu, padahal (pada waktu itu) engkau belum berwujud sama sekali" [19:9]

' Dia (Jibril) berkata,  Demikianlah. "Tuhanmu berfirman,  Hal itu mudah bagi-Ku,  dan agar Kami menjadikannya suatu tanda (kebesaran Allah) bagi manusia dan sebagai rahmat dari Kami; dan hal itu adalah suatu urusan yang (sudah) diputuskan" [19:21]

Terkedu seketika saat membaca maksud ayat ini, Allah ulang 2 kali " Hal itu mudah bagi-Ku". Allah seakan memberitahu segala yang berlaku adalah kehendakKu dan jika Aku berkehendak maka jadilah.  Usai membaca maksud keduanya saya menjadi tenang dan lebih redha kerana petunjuk yang saya mohon adalah berkenan rasa suka pada seseorang yang masih diawangan dan bolehkah saya hidup dengan gaji yang tak seberapa?  Alhamdulillah walaupun gaji kecil tapi masih mampu hidup atas rezeki Allah bagi dan untuk jodoh saya hanya berdoa berikan yang terbaik.

Kadangkala Allah uji kita kerana Allah nak buka peluang yang lagi baik. Allah tak akan pernah menyusahkan hambaNya melainkan untuk kebaikan hambaNya. Jangan pernah buruk sangka dan sentiasa ingat " Kita merancang Allah juga merancang, tapi perancangan Allah lebih baik dan sempurna".❤💋