Bittersweet of 2020

The hardest year but still too much learnt throughout the year. Some lessons learnt...

♥ Self love ♥

No one will when you're not. You will glow up when you accept who you're. Appreciate and thank yourself too. Do what do want to do. I finally realize that I am passionate about writing short poem or thoughts. It is one of my way to express my emotions and thoughts too. Never downgrade yourself to please others. 

♥ Be grateful ♥

Count your blessings and appreciate your loved one. Be thankful for everything you have: supportive family,  still working,  have food on table despite of this hard time. Some people might have harder time than you, so stop complaining. You're being blessed for too much.

♥ Rely on Allah ONLY!

When you have hard time, share your load with Allah not anyone else. Cry and beg for Him as He never judge you even for smallest thing. He has His own way to to answer you.  Believe it!! And He is also the best secret keeper.

♥ Never judge anyone

I'm still learn to do this. We never know what struggle he/she facing. Just pray the best for them!  Don't be jealous if someone have something you don't have. Allah will bless you in His own unique ways.

♥ Ask for The Best ♥

Allah knows what the best for you and you don't. He knows if you're capable or not. He knows what future holds. So just trust Him to give what's the best. Ask Him to help you accept His plans and take away everything that not be yours. I learnt this while studied the meaning of doa istikharah. Such a lovely lesson to keep remind myself.

♥ Improve yourself ♥

Never stop learn to be better person everyday even you keep doing sin. Allah is The Most Forgiver. I learned to improve my basic Ibadah, try to constantly doing sedekah and regularly listen to religion talk for my spiritual need. And I'm seeking financial, parenting and marriage knowledge too. 

♥ Let go ♥

Let me leave behind everything I don't belong and move forward to accept what I need and deserve. Never try to catch up on others. You are on your own track my dear. 

Thank you !!!

Signing off, 

2020 

Setia

 Aku masih di sini

Walaupun jatuh berkali kali

Engkau masih hulurkan tangan 

Adakala lukaku parah sekali

Hingga aku perlu bertongkat

Tapi engkau setia disisi

Saat aku kelu berbicara

Walau sepatah kata

Hanya ditemani air mata 

Engkau datang memujuk

Engkau setia mendengar

Engkau setia disisi

Saat aku hilang arah

Saat aku tiada dahan berpaut

Saat aku tak mampu teruskan

Engkau setia disisi

Engkau bagi aku cinta

Engkau bagi aku rindu

Walau aku kadangkala degil

Walau aku belum sempurna

Kadang aku cuba menjauh

Tapi engkau setia disisi

Engkau masih sayang

Engkau sentiasa datang

Kerana aku sifatnya mudah lupa

Kerana aku belum mampu sepenuhnya setia

Kerana aku masih bertatih

Belajar untuk  rindu dan cinta

Hanya pada Engkau 

Cinta yang satu

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The curve

It was like 'boom hitting me'

I was clueless 

My mind went blank 

I was miserable 

Angry, sad, shame - all mixed up

I kept asking why and why

Do I need to be invisible now

I have another plan for this

How it can be twisted like this

......................

How can I not remember 

I was the one who asked

For the way out and solution 

I asked Him to guide me

I asked Him to sort this out

So why I'm got mad when this happened 

He already answered me

Now I just need to move forward 

He knows me better than I do

He knows good when I don't 

He knows everything of future holds

I just need to SMILE and live on

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