2019 really did big impact to me on how i see something happened. It was very tough year 🌵 but I did small turning point in my life. I slowly see another rainbow 🌈 on closed door before. I am in healing progress of something that I had been holding for myself since 2012. The deepest wound that keep haunted me since then ( 😢😭). Even though, I am still not fully recover, I am now better 😊.
There are some lessons learnt from the heartbroken 💔.
♥ PUT YOUR BELIEVE IN ALLAH ♥
Whenever things don't be well as you plan, believe that Allah has the best plan for you. Or He actually diverge you from something you can't handle. Somehow, I accidentally went through Prof Muhaya talk with Ustazah Asma Harun and she shared this verse from Quran Surah Ghafir : 44. This verse is about putting 💯 trust on Allah to help you in whatever problems that you are dealing with.
♥SHARE YOUR SORROW OR PAIN WITH ALLAH♥
He is the only one who truly know your pain as He is the one create your heart, so He will know better what you feel. Sometimes, you can't describe the pain that you faced,even you already talked to someone you close to. The best way to keep calm is, crying in your sujood and tell everything to Allah. You will find those calmness even the problem are not solved yet. The feeling was like a heavy burden has been removed from your shoulder.
♥SEEKING ALLAH WHENEVER LOST♥
One tip that i keep doing whenever i feel 'lost'. Read surah Al Fatihah, selawat with the intention of seeking for Allah's help. Then, close your eyes and randomly open the pages of the Holy Quran. Read those 2 pages and go through the meaning of every sentence. If Allah's will, 1 or 2 sentences are just like Allah's answer to your worries 😭. You will feel like Allah is too care for you even though you disobey Him
♥ BE GRATEFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE♥
Stop looking for something you don't have, but start counting on your blessings. Not all are lucky as much as you are. You might have something that other people are searching for. Count on your blessing from having supportive family, good friend, meal to eat and a place to stay.
♥EVERYONE HAS HIS STRUGGLE♥
Every one of us has different level of tests so don't compare to others. We also have different strength and weakness. Don't lose hope when you fail in that level because others can easily passed through that. You never know they might be struggle in another level. Just believe there is sun after rain.
♥ DON'T EASILY JUGDE PEOPLE BASED ON WHAT YOU SEE♥
Don't easily judge people for not doing for what they are responsible to. They might be not doing that in front of you. The true identity of a person lie on a pieces of blood called 'heart'. It is where you know the true intention of someone. Someone you see as 'bad guy' can be the kindest person you never knew.
