Kenangan beraya setelah 2 tahun raya dalam pandemik.
Kenangan jem di highway semua nak balik beraya setelah 2 tahun
Kenangan raya sehari awal daripada tarikh asal, semua kalut di malam raya.
Alhamdulillah masih diizinkan Allah bersama keluarga tercinta.
1828 29052022 | 28 Syawal 1443H
After years, I finally found one, the long lost love. The love that no one can steal from me anymore and it's gonna be the strongest one too. It all started back in 3rd quarter of 2021 when I got lost of myself, as things happened not as expected. Everything tangled up and I was stuck somewhere messed up. Then, I got listened to songs of 7 boys 'Magic Shop' ,'Epiphany' and I cried when went through the lyrics. It was like the comfort to all my lost self and I realized that I were not alone facing this difficulties. They taught me about love that I ignored for this time being which is "SELF LOVE". The love that is on top priority before any other love.
Amazingly, when I start this kind of love, I am more confident and happier than before. I don't really compared my life with others and learn to enjoy every moment in life. I am more grateful and I also believe that everything happens in its perfect timing. No rush as you are on your own timing.
Yes !! I love me !!! 😘
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Last day before 2021 chapter's will be closed. A tough and hard year for everyone fighting with the Covid 19 and struggle to keep going forward despite the challenge ahead. But still, it was a year that taught life lessons a lot. For me myself, it was year of self improvement and healing. There's few point I could highlighted throughout the year.
Self love
When things did not turned out as expected, I kept blaming myself until day I hate being me. I kept asking why and why for the things happened. I cried everyday and almost got depressed too. Till someone told me to care for myself and do things I love, I started to accept my flaws and think things positively. I keep telling myself it's okay to cry and self talk really helps a lot for healing.
Appreciate your blessings
I learned to appreciate what I have rather than hoping for something I don't. I am so blessed to have caring and loving family, good friends and always surrounded by kind people. Many people affected by Covid 19 as shutting down business, losing family members and struggled mentally and emotionally to keep sane in hardest year.
Enjoy moments with loved one
Time is short and you will never know how much chance you have to spend with your loved ones. So never wait, express your love to them. It's okay to buy them simple things, the price doesn't matter much, the moment that will last. Don't wait until you are rich, share your sustenance (blessings) with others and Allah will give more.
Have faith in Allah's plan
Even you don't see what's ahead, always believe that Allah is planning your life perfectly. When you feel like you're left behind, no you're not. You're on your own track. Allah want to prepare you for something great ahead. So just be patient a bit more, your blessing is on its way.
It's okay to not be okay
It's okay to have bad day but never let it drown you. Because you're human, your feelings are matter, it's okay to be happy a day and sad another day. As long as you are not giving up, everything will be fine some day. When you are exhausted, you can keep silent or keep distance from people who drown your energy. It's not sin, it's just self care.
Never compare yourself to others
Never looked down on others because you're never be in their shoes and you will never be. So tolerate the difference because our track never be the same. Be careful on your words too as you might bleed someone's feeling and the pain might take much time to heal. It's not their fault that the blessing didn't come yet, it is just the matter of time. You're are not the winner if you achieved something early, it is your timeline. Allah is fair, He will test all of us accordingly, some are facing despair before receiving blessings and vice versa.
365days of 2021 taught me a lot of life. But I thanked and was so grateful, I realized something before it's too late. 2021 is adulting year too even I am still not that ready for adult's things. Thanks and bye 2021.
2030 311221 |Kuala Terengganu
"Allah tidak menjemput orang yang mampu tapi Allah akan mampukan orang yg Dia jemput"
Kadang² Allah tangguhkan pertemuan itu supaya kamu lebih bersedia. Ya ! Bersedia sepenuhnya supaya hatimu benar² ikhlas bertemuNya.
Tahun ke 2 , hanya orang² yang betul² terpilih boleh menunaikan Haji. Asbab Covid19, bilangan jemaah dikurangkan demi keselamatan semua. Sedih bila tengok gambar, suasana haji tak semeriah dulu, biasanya padat dengan manusia yang berlumba² untuk mendapatkan haji mabrur.
Semoga Allah angkat wabak ini dan menjemput semua yang berhajat ke sana.
Ya Allah, Jemputlah aku dan keluargaku ke sana dalam keadaaan dan waktu yang baik.
Malam sebelum Hari Arafah 8.45pm | 180721
Aku masih di sini
Meniti hari tanpa destinasi
Aku terlihat bahagia luarnya
Namun tak siapa tahu hati ini
Yang tak pernah tenang lagi aman
Aku masih di sini
Ada yang bilang aku selesa
Aku dilihat tak cuba berusaha
Tapi hanya aku tahu semuanya
Segala suka duka yang datang
Aku masih di sini
Kadang aku hampir gila
Tak mampu kuhadam jalan yang diberi
Tapi Dia masih sayang
Kerana aku masih ada iman
Aku masih di sini
Entah sampai bila kumampu bertahan
Menahan beban sendiri tanpa bantuan
Tuhan bagi aku ruang dan peluang
Untuk aku dapat sikit perhatianMu
Aku masih di sini
Saat dan ketika ini
Andai satu saat aku tersungkur
Capai tanganku dan tunjukkan jalan
Kerana itu yang aku perlukan
2335 060621 | Shah Alam
Snacks / Kudap² paling senang.
Guna 2 bahan sahaja tau.
1. Beryl's Dark Chocolate
2. Rice Bubble
Cara² :
1. Cairkan coklat ( guna double boiled - supaya coklat tak hangit)
2. Tutupkan api dan biarkan sekejap sebelum masukkan rice bubble kedalam periuk tadi
3. Gaul rata dan sudukan adunan tadi di atas loyang mengikut saiz yang dikehendaki.
4. Sejukan dalam freezer selama 15 minit dan sedia untuk di makan. Yummss 😋
Saat tak mampu kuluah
Rasa yang terbeban
Mataku sering berkaca
Aku buntu dan keliru
Dimana harus ku mulakan
Bagaimana aku mahu selesaikan
Tuhan, aku hampir rebah
Tuhan, aku hampir kalah
Aku tahu ujian ini tak sia²
Ada kejutan untukku di depan
Tapi pinjamkan aku kekuatan
Hingga aku melihat cantiknya pelangi
Tuhan, jangan pernah kau tinggalkan
Aku terkapai sendirian
Kerna aku tahu kau pasti ada jalan
Untuk segalanya yang aku risaukan
Kerna kau Tuhan sekalian alam
January 2021
Jangan disoal mengapa aku disini
Kau bilang aku takut ke depan
Andai kau tahu apa yang aku rasakan
Mana mungkin engkau berkata sedemikian
Andai semudah itu jalan di hadapan
Akan aku cepat berjalan
Kerana aku juga mahu lupakan
Kisah pedih dan terluka semalam
Maaf andai aku menjauh
Luka semalam belum sembuh
Parut itu masih kelihatan
Dan aku takut terjatuh lagi
Jalan kita tak kan serupa
Mungkin jalanku sedikit panjang
Tapi aku yakin
Bila waktunya aku akan sampai
Hidup ini tak pernah sempurna
Lompong ada dimana mana
Usah kau mendabik dada
Kerana karma itu ada
120221 1930 | Shah Alam
It's already 2021 and January almost comes to end in few days. How time flies. But still it's not too late to reset new goals. This year, I am going to focus more on self improve. Here, 10 keynotes that I need to keep remind myself ✨. Better version of myself is in progress 💪🏻 .
It is easier to achieve when you have specific goals. In order to make it clearer, I create this vision board for my 'a bit confidential' goals for 2021. Since, I cannot set this post as ONLY ME, so I need to blur the details 😜😝. Pray for me as I can get all of these fulfilled by end of 2021. Aminn ♥.
The hardest year but still too much learnt throughout the year. Some lessons learnt...
♥ Self love ♥
No one will when you're not. You will glow up when you accept who you're. Appreciate and thank yourself too. Do what do want to do. I finally realize that I am passionate about writing short poem or thoughts. It is one of my way to express my emotions and thoughts too. Never downgrade yourself to please others.
♥ Be grateful ♥
Count your blessings and appreciate your loved one. Be thankful for everything you have: supportive family, still working, have food on table despite of this hard time. Some people might have harder time than you, so stop complaining. You're being blessed for too much.
♥ Rely on Allah ONLY!
When you have hard time, share your load with Allah not anyone else. Cry and beg for Him as He never judge you even for smallest thing. He has His own way to to answer you. Believe it!! And He is also the best secret keeper.
♥ Never judge anyone
I'm still learn to do this. We never know what struggle he/she facing. Just pray the best for them! Don't be jealous if someone have something you don't have. Allah will bless you in His own unique ways.
♥ Ask for The Best ♥
Allah knows what the best for you and you don't. He knows if you're capable or not. He knows what future holds. So just trust Him to give what's the best. Ask Him to help you accept His plans and take away everything that not be yours. I learnt this while studied the meaning of doa istikharah. Such a lovely lesson to keep remind myself.
♥ Improve yourself ♥
Never stop learn to be better person everyday even you keep doing sin. Allah is The Most Forgiver. I learned to improve my basic Ibadah, try to constantly doing sedekah and regularly listen to religion talk for my spiritual need. And I'm seeking financial, parenting and marriage knowledge too.
♥ Let go ♥
Let me leave behind everything I don't belong and move forward to accept what I need and deserve. Never try to catch up on others. You are on your own track my dear.
Thank you !!!
Signing off,
2020
Aku masih di sini
Walaupun jatuh berkali kali
Engkau masih hulurkan tangan
Adakala lukaku parah sekali
Hingga aku perlu bertongkat
Tapi engkau setia disisi
Saat aku kelu berbicara
Walau sepatah kata
Hanya ditemani air mata
Engkau datang memujuk
Engkau setia mendengar
Engkau setia disisi
Saat aku hilang arah
Saat aku tiada dahan berpaut
Saat aku tak mampu teruskan
Engkau setia disisi
Engkau bagi aku cinta
Engkau bagi aku rindu
Walau aku kadangkala degil
Walau aku belum sempurna
Kadang aku cuba menjauh
Tapi engkau setia disisi
Engkau masih sayang
Engkau sentiasa datang
Kerana aku sifatnya mudah lupa
Kerana aku belum mampu sepenuhnya setia
Kerana aku masih bertatih
Belajar untuk rindu dan cinta
Hanya pada Engkau
Cinta yang satu
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It was like 'boom hitting me'
I was clueless
My mind went blank
I was miserable
Angry, sad, shame - all mixed up
I kept asking why and why
Do I need to be invisible now
I have another plan for this
How it can be twisted like this
......................
How can I not remember
I was the one who asked
For the way out and solution
I asked Him to guide me
I asked Him to sort this out
So why I'm got mad when this happened
He already answered me
Now I just need to move forward
He knows me better than I do
He knows good when I don't
He knows everything of future holds
I just need to SMILE and live on
011120 00:57| Shah Alam
Selamat Hari Lahir !
Terima kasih untuk kekuatan hari² lepas
Terima kasih untuk masih bertahan
Terima kasih untuk terus ke depan
Walau tiada siapa tahu...
Bila mata ini banjir
Bila hati ini sakit
Bila bahu ini hampir patah
Bila kepala ini hendak meletup
Bila nafas ini sesak
Bila jasad ini mahu menghilang
Terima kasih untuk tetap bangun dan tersenyum walaupun penghujung terowong masih samar.
Semoga Isma Amirah menjadi ...
Seorang yang lebih kuat
Seorang yang lebih bijak dan matang
Seorang yang lebih baik perwatakan dan akhlaknya
Seorang sentisa diberikan kesihatan yang baik
Seorang yang sentiasa bersyukur dan lebih memberi
Seorang yang menyayangi setiap orang di sekelilingnya.
2020 tahun yang mencabar tapi Allah buka peluang untuk seorang Isma Amirah menjadi lebih baik.
Selamat Ulang Tahun !
Survived 27 years and I now you will do more years ahead.
Love yourself first ♥
Rasa itu
Kusangka hanya seketika cuma
Singgahan buat si hati
Tanpa sedar bertahun mendiami
Rasa itu
Mungkin ini karma dari Tuhan
Asbab kata² ku yang lalu
Apa yang tersirat hanya Allah yang tahu
Rasa itu
Luahkan biar jelas tanpa bayangan
Teruskan atau tinggalkan
Tapi aku, masih takut melangkah
Rasa itu
Kerna aku tahu pipit tak mungkin bersama enggang
Kerna aku tahu langit tak mampu mendekati bumi
Tapi aku tidak tahu mengapa aku masih teruskan
Rasa itu
Benarlah kata pujangga
Benci berpada-pada suka bersederhana
Kelak mungkin memakan diri
Rasa itu
Ku serahkan pada Tuhan Pemilik Hati
Mudahkan andai ia milikku
Jauhkan jika hanya ujian
090820 00:31 | Shah Alam
